No I'm not ok!!

My world is turned up side down, why do these things have to happen?  Why so young, why is his life taken away at age 30?  So many dreams, so many aspirations.  He won't see his sons first birthday (which is April 11th), he won't get to celebrate his first wedding anniversary.  My best friend Casey is a widow at age 26.  I can't make any sense of this.  Why did the most genuine, giving, caring person get taken away from us so young. 

I am heading to Colorado tomorrow, I have to attend his memorial at Redrocks, than a flight to Mississippi on Friday.  It should not have happened this way. 

Shock, Sadness, Anger, you ask me if I am okay?  No I am not ok, I deal with death about as well as anyone else, and I just cannot handle this.  Just when things start to look up I get another blow back to the depths of depression, I have not stopped crying in 2 days.  I am ANGRY!!

Those bastards on his job site, they will pay.  All of my friends say well Casey and the baby will be taken care of...a wrongful death lawsuit, is that going to make this pain go away, NO it will not.  Is that going to replace the love that man had for his wife and baby, NO!!  All I can say is I am glad he went quick, he didn't feel the pain.   A large amount of voltage went through his body, he is gone.

Rest in Peace, Chris Carder, this person we call "god" has a comedian by his side, and Casey and baby Chase have an angel on their shoulder forever.

September 17, 1975 - March 18, 2006